(still) at a lost.

在什么情况下你会刻意说出伤害对方的话？


baby it's new year in a moments' time.
but i ain't happy. at all.


:(

SHENNYo9!

OOOMMGGGG!

Is SHENNY really gonna happen in So6?

I'm so anticipating th show, minus away how Ilene Chaiken's gonna kill Jenny! Urgh.

Urgh, dreeeeead tomorrow. There's work. Not like somebody can go out nd play *squeals*

I think I really need t change my necky's necklace. It's starting t change colour. Dear Starfish, I've changed my mind. 我要新的链。Just th 链。Okays? (:

Great dinner with my loves! =D

labyrinth.

Yes yes yes, I'm not heavily broken.
I'm gonna change away th blog song soon.
Though it's NICE.

Anyway, th Singapore Flyer's not working right?
But I saw it lit up tday? Or does it still lights up even though it's not in service?
Damn, I think I wouldn't mind being trapped up there so hours; given it's night time nd minus away th fact that I'd need toilet!
Imagine being up there for 6hours from evening till night. Cool or what! Pay 30bucks but you get t see sunset nd even count stars without any time limit.
Ahahas. Should be cool, isn't it.

Random, but ME LOVE GOLDEN MILE FOOD CENTER! They have sooooooo much nice food there pleeeeease! Like every stall you walk by, there's bound t be something t lure you t walk closer nd buy! Especially love th Roti John (named after Hollywood stars like Brad Pitt, J.Lo, Shakira) nd Roti John Shakira is damn delicious! Th chicken curry noodle is must try also! Nd th grass jelly drink! Nd th chicken rice. Nd th beef hor fun.
LOL. I'm like advertising for them. xD

Another random note, Beyonce reminds me of Tyra Banks when she's singing If I Were A Boy. Lol. Especially when I was watching EMA o8 nd she sang it live. Th image of Tyra Banks just kept appearing!

You don't listen t her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose th one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for
granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Boy,
就是因为你的心不在我这，
所以才会那么在意那些小小举动。

like in your arms, baby.

So th public transport was against us tday.
Spontaneously, Starfish suggested we go EastCoastPark for a bladding session. So we took a bus, thinking that we could change t 4o1 at Old Airport Road. Alas, 4o1 DOES NOT function on weekdays! So in th end we took a cab from there t ECP.

Had a fun time there! Blading nd seating at Bedok Jetty. ND TAKING PHOTOS WITH MY MUJI DISPOSABLE CAMERA! Cool or what; Starfish bought it for me! Thanks for th surprise, xoxo! Anw, I'm so damn excited about th photos can. Can't wait t wash them! Ohmygod, it's been a long time since I wash photos using films! WAHAHA!

Okay, side tracked.

Anyway, so on th way back we walked t a bus stop at th neighbourhood nd tried t take a bus back home. So bus no. 16 came along nd I checked th bus route roughly nd thought it will bring us back home. Nd guess what, I saw wrongly! It goes t Golden Mile Tower, NOT Golden Mile Center! T_T Dumb! Nd I got chided by Starfish. ROAR!


Btw, The Day Th Earth Stood Still is dumb please. Luckily we watched it at home instead of going t th theatre for it. Oh god. It certainly deserves 2popcorn, laoda. Just watch it at home. Keanu Reeves is handsome though. Nd th female protagonist is pretty uh, like Rachel Shelly (THELWORD).

I WANNA SHOW OFF MY CUTE DUMMY DISPOSABLE CAMERA THAT STARFISH BOUGHT FOR ME!

Baby Stitch, Starfish nd ME(:

Gnight love!

[[like in your arms]]

terribly sick.

FEVERRRRR!
Skipped work today, feeling damn heaty all over. Nd guess what, I slept all th way till 3:30 just now!
I think th not-very-sambal sambal chicken rice last night made my voice worse. Starfish says I sound like a tranny.
My lips tastes bitter.
I'll finish th bottle of liangteh.

th look in your eyes, baby.

i just can't help it but smile.

merry xmas(:

Glad that you love it;

[[can you see what th gurl yearns for? nd what th guy wants?]]

Look into th eyes of th gurl, what d'you see?
她期待的，是他能给的吗？
他能给的，是她所要的吗？

crashed.

imma grit my teeth.

到最后好像是你在生气。
到最后好像是你不高兴。
到最后还是是你不理我。

忽冷忽热。

Always following your formula. Always going with your flow. Always playing by your rules.
I know I can't complain much, cos I'm doing this willingly.

就要这样了吗？
没有别的方法了吗？ 没有别的选择了吗？
我知道再一百遍结果还是这样。
但是就是。。。

it's torturous but i know i asked for it.

Spiteful words hurt feelings, but baby, your silence breaks my heart.

Boy, i'm sorry for picking on you tday.
saranghae.

怎么了

So we met up yesterday for a shopping trip in town!
It's been quite some time since we went shopping together. Thanks t xmas! =D

Fish Manhatten's F&C is nice. But I sitll prefer Fish&Co's.


Th contented women of a rewarding trip!

Chinyee was a stalker for me that day! Lol.
She kept taking pictures of me during lunch! xD

It was a damn rewarding trip for me please! Enjoyed myself=D

Let's go shopping again sometime soon! (:

Okays. I'm damn tired. Been waking up at 6plus for th past 2days.
My goodness.

Pyjames Parteyy at Dicky's tomorrow. Like real!
Actually it's project meet up uh. We're trying t spice things up.

So we named it as pyjames parteyy. Lol.

Omg. I'm having a great headache now.
How I hate choosing presents.
I just hope th blogshop owner could get back t me REAL SOON.

TWILIGHT
Why can't we see th time slot for th 18th?! ROAR! I so wanna watch it luh!
*twist my fingers*

My lens are here! waiyu, quick go collect once you're free kays(:

I'm feeling very suppressed now.

Like I have so much t say but I just can't seem t voice them out.
Why does this always happen t me?!
No matter with friends, or with 他。
郁闷。

ROAR!

Okay. I'm starting t feel very negative now. T_T

不想再说了。

Been wanting t show this t everyone;
ME LIKE DOMO-KUN!!

Cos your hugging me tightly almost made me
believe it was real for a second.

thdearstuff

I would do self reflection myself too.

So many things happening, so many things going through my mind, so many things we do behind each other's back, so many things we can't say it right t each other's face. 没有人会觉得好受。
But at th end of th day, it's all because we're concern for each other.

I've thought so much when showering just now.
I have my bad; for everything that happened. I had my share of doing things that I wouldn't want others t do t me behind my back. But because I have done that myself, I wouldn't stop others nd mind them from doing that t me.
Perhaps that's what they call as give nd take?

It just seems t be getting harder; everything.

I hope we can make it through this together, dears.
(:

tmd. i feel angry for you, even though it might not concern me. it's so wronged!

may the fleas of a thousand camel infests the crotch of th person who did that
and may their arms be too short to scratch. AMEN.

a different tday without you, Boy.
it might not hold any special meaning t you anymore but it's on such days that i'm reminded of that fateful day by th beach.

busy lika BEE~

THINGS TO DO THIS HOLIDAY:

Work at Tampines on th 13th nd 14th.
Damn early, considering that I have t wake up at 645AM.

Pyjames Parteyy at Dicky's on th 17th.

Twilight on th 18th!

Bookshop help out on th 19th. (TBC)

CY Bday on 21st.

Town for xmas gifts on 22nd.

Xmas Countdown Party at Darling's on 24th.

CHRISTMAS

Collect collaterals on th 26th.

Project touch-up between 29th-2Jan.

SCHOOL REOPEN ON 5th Jan.

DAMN LOOKING FOR TO 6THJAN09.
TLW So6 will be out!

For th rest of th days,
WEBSITE DESIGN nd other random to-be-finished nd done stuff.
Suddenly I feel like I'm actually kinda busy this holiday.
This entry'll serve as a reminder for myself. xD

Okay. Gotta run now. I have t wake up at ungodly 645AM tomorrow.

a different tomorrow without you.

Look into my eyes,
if you cared enough you'd know I have so much t say.
I just didn't have a proper chance t.
I have so much t tell.
I just didn't have a chance t.
给我一首歌的时间，让我把我想说的都说给你听。

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

emotionally crippled.

In a blink of eye (oh-so-cliche!), we've attended 9 weeks of school. Or so it was supposed t be.
Nd tomorrow is th last day of school until next year! (:
I'm starting t anticipate this holiday. Of course, together with projects (!!!), odd working jobs here nd there, having time t myself, festive season, nd A REASON TO SHOP!
For both Xmas nd CNY(:

Somehow I'm kinda excited about this year's Xmas. Oh baby baby, don't spoil it. Keep th mood euphoric!
I just hope my anticipation won't bring me disappointment.

Anyway, something happened in school tday uh. Omfg. I can only say as a lecturer, what you said was TOTALLY inappopriate pleeeeeeeeeease. How could you malign your student like that before finding out th truth. God gracious. So anyway, we all stayed behind for awhile before heading t work t see th verdict of th accusation. But it dragged on too long so Starfish nd I left first. 老天有眼 -God has got eyes- nd proved him wrong. I felt just as nice about th appology. Uh-huh-huh.

Malio, LD nd Ahboo stayed over at my place until 4+5 in th morning tday. We talked nd chatted. It's been a looooong time since we had such long talks. A pity CY gotta go school, if not you should join us! =D
Anyway, so we talked through th night nd into th dawn. Nd oh my god, I slept for just 3hours nd woke up again t prepare for school. Like a zombie please. Couldn't absorb anything mates were saying until I had a cuppa. Nd trust me, if there's one thing in this school that's better than that of outside th campus, it has t be th ICED COFFEE. Th auntie claimed that 我的咖啡粉很贵 horh. LOL. But uh, it's really nice please! Th aroma of coffee, totally wakes me up! =D

Uh. Abrupt ending. Bye! Oh, just t add. My right thumb is hurting like crazyfuck bcos I hurt it during work just now. 呼呼~

another Bruise(d), but not yet Broken.
Let's see how
much more can I withstand.
Let's see how much more can my love for you
withstand.
Won't talk about it here.
No, I won't.

penguin.

It left me t ponder for awhile after th movie.
I guess afterall, love does come with a certain level of responsibility.
If it doesn't, it aint real love.

Is your Christmas gonna be a heart warming one this year?
I hope mine will be.
uoysisamxroftnawilla. (:

Folks probably going out for supper later!
Ooohh, sinful but imma tag along!

HOTSHOT IS UBER NICE,
minus away those overly-fake-flying-around-th-court kinda way of playing.
Okay, now I have th feel t re-watch Meteor Garden.
Can't get enough of Jerry Yan!
Nd nd, I can't wait for Twilight t come out.
Imma catch it with Starfish, hOney, special one!

Tags reply:

Baba nd Wenling- Lol. I'd rather love someone. Might be tired, but it's more 幸福 cos one is richer when giving. xD
Xan- Me agree with you(:
Joey- Lol. You can't have th best of both whole. o.O
Malio- I go t your blog for th same reason. But you seldom update? O.o Update more, darling(:
Syazzy- Aye, here also can. Save as draft? (: I don't like LJ uh, can't work with LJ format xD
Judee- Ooohh. Wise advice from Prof. Judee again=D
Yvonne- Hello cousin XD

how can i.

就是因为知道 some things lost can never be retrieved，所以才会那么在乎在 lost 之前所得到的东西。
在那么多无法把它留在身边的东西里，这是唯一能让我 keepsake 的。
在那么多需要你而你却不在的时候，它是唯一陪着我的。
没有人知道它对我的意义。

how can i be so careless.

Purpose of a blog.

Do me a favor. See th poll by th side bar? Do it willya? (:
I've been thinking for a week for now. Why am I blogging, when there are so many things that I couldn't blog about openly here.
I'm thinking of closing down my blog. Convince me that I should not. Don't let struggling-supergirl die (pun not intended).

最近超容易心情不好。那一份熟悉的感觉似乎已经变得陌生了。。
我好怕。好怕我们撑不过去。
多多少少，似乎已经只剩下我一个了吧?
To others, I might seem t be collecting stones. But boy, I see th diamond in you.
Th diamond that no other saw.
所以他们不明白为什么我爱的那么深。


I used t be loved, gaining nothing but love. Nd now I'm loving, giving nothing but love.
irony.


Nd would you rather love nd lost it or to never loved at all?