dou shite?

那种令我快窒息的痛。

Spiteful words hurt feelings,
but your silence breaks my heart.

litmus test

*edited*
I have so much photos t upload. From Desaru trip until yesterday.

I ATE CLAYPOT RICE AGAIN YESTERDAY! =D

Anyway,

Syaz, you look like Meera here! (:

You can't imagine how suay I was that day.

My Hava broke. It literally broke like I don't know why?!

In th end I had t snap of th back strap.

I NEED A NEW PAIR OF HAVA PLEASE, SOMEONE!

Had a roleplay project on friday, hence th formal attire. Told you they pariah me.
hOney nd me(:

Then I went t Starfish's place later that day t do frontpage.

Nd he decided he's gonna 下厨 nd cook fried rice for me=D

Doesn't it just look TASTY?!

Nd he made us spaghetti yesterday!
Swear it was delicious(:

xxxxxooooo
This was taken using MY HANDPHONE.
*aku cinta this picture*
LOL, inside joke![[ Decked in everything I chose for him]]His sis's lent me her slippers, so cute right?!
Probably th cutest slippers I've ever worn!(:

When was th last time you saw this? Lol.
Speaking of which, after roughly 2months?
Am going t develop it tomorrow after school,
so damn looking forward t it pleeeease! Lol.
sua ku!


Laoda said I've neglected tlw for a long time.
So Sat, when Starfish was doing his frontpage, I start t watch tlw again.
Only up till s6o2 though.
Damn, Shane nd Jenny are together!
SHENNY came true!
It does seem a bit weird though, th way Jenny confesses t Shane.
Nd th way they kiss, th way they behave.
BUT I AM ENJOYING THIS.

I'm looking forward t spring cleaning, it's gonna be so much fun!

Having said all these, which seems t be a decently long post,
I'm gonna stop writing cos my menses cramp is killing me!
Nd I need t do my frontpage, like I promised.
I WON'T BE LAZY TDAY.
Nd I wanna finish tlw t th latest episode uh.
Bye lovelies!

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I finished tlw until s6o5. Perhaps Shenny isn't as good as I thought it would be?

Jenny is getting on Shane's nerve. On mine as well.
Agrees with Sulinn, she's damn insecure after getting together with Shane.
Drastic swing of characteristic, but I love her all th same!

&& Frontpage died on me.
I practically didn't do anything t my webpage th entire day!
*waves frantically*
Alright. 8:10pm.
Off t start frontpage.

for us.

For hearing me out just now. For realizing that I was a lil weird throughout dinner. For knowing how I felt. For letting me put my guards down nd tell you my fears. For prompting me t talk about it. Most importantly, for being there with me. For hugging me close nd not say a thing when I cry. For holding onto me when I’m afraid. For good times && bad, I know we'd be there for each other. Won't we?

xoxo'

I did frontpage for 4hours nd it nearly killed me.

I have alot of pictures t upload.

But I'm using Starfish's desktop now,

if you know what I meant. Lol.

Will be back tnight with many pictures!
I wanna watch He's just not that into You.

Imma develop photos later! =D

vday, simple affair.

A lil late uh. But still.
my Vday was well spent. cos i have you(:

*mushy*

anw, we caught Benjamin Button. Wasn't bad. Kinda enjoyed it
though my butt was super sore from th duration of it. Brad Pitt looks hot, younger.
Nd I got t eat th beef patty at BBQ Chicken at Cineleisure! Oiishii!

xoxo's

vday.

(:




Come back later for more!

ohman

I'M SO UPTIGHT ABOUT TOMORROW'S PRESENTATION.
i don't know why.
Perhaps cos it's one of th last few presentations I'm gonna do with META *insert sad expressions here* nd I want th best out of it.
I'd miss doing projects with them. Miss gathering every thursday nd friday for projects. Miss all th side-trackings during projects. Nd definitely miss all th laughters during projects!
Hwaiting for th rest of th projects!

Back t PPT now.
T_T

admist.

I'm so unproductive tday.
Woke up at 12plus, slacked till 2plus nd went gekpoh with Daddy.
Online all th way until now.
Stopped for a mo in between t read My Sister's Keeper.
Okay, pretty unproductive.

However, I completed something tday!
Smthg that I used t be unable-t-do-it cos I'm a 3minute person.
But you motivated me, baybeh! xD
Smthg small, but enough t make me glee when I look at it.
Jiayan is so proud of herself now, pleeeeease.

Aww, i'm missing Starfish.
Nd Ctb gathering REAL SOON please(:
My schedule's alrdy up here(:

I had Claypot Rice for dinner!
*happy*

Watched Flight of th Pheonix with Starfish just now at his place. Damn, th male lead Dennis Quaid has a hot bod given his age! *looks at Starfish* Ahaha. xD
Oh man. I wanna watch Benjamin Button, Rachel Getting Married, Wedding Game, Underworld, Passengers. There's so many movies, so little time!

Borrowed a novel -My Sister's Keeper- from Syaz.
Imma stay home tomorrow nd finish it up.
So tired from going out everyday.
Oh man, my eyes are closing.

Baby's Breath + purple Roses is LOVE. I haven't seen real purple roses before though=x
But I can imagine how pretty it'd be. Awww~

JIAYAN CRAVES FOR CLAYPOT RICE NOW.

Nd I'm going t have it later downstairs with Starfish.
*contented*
me like golden mile food center.
Back again later(:

ohwell. fcukit.

I'm not being a spoilt brat but I really gotta change my phone.
Fuck th lousy feature when talking on th phone.
Whenever a call comes in, th whole phone hangs. Whenever I wanna view a incoming sms while on th phone, th speed of responding is ubbbbbbber slow. When I talk on th phone, I'd always press th Hold button accidentally without fail. It's uber slow when loading Gallery. It's Video function is kinda faulty. There's a visible scratch on th screen.
Despite th pretty appearance, despite it being 5mp, despite it having 3G, despite its touch screen.


You know sometimes, it's just so frusfrating t hear th people around you criticizing your belongings. Or th things you like. Or th person you like. Or th way you do things.
I mean, once in a while it's fine. But when it starts coming too often, it starts t get on my nerve.
Like how I don't think my lappy is lousy, cos at least it facilitates me well enough. I don't think my bed's made of poor material, at least I'm able t sleep soundly every night (minus away th external factors that keeps me awake th whole night). I don't think my phone's so sucky that it should be thrown away, it has a certain market value. Nd I definitely don't think Eeyore(s) are ugly just because he looks dumb.


Argh, don't mind me. I'm in a rotten mood now. Nd th inability t put th videos into th ppt makes me mad. Nd th fact that everything seems messed up irks me. Th thought of nothing is done for frontpage makes me wanna scream.

My neck hurts like fuck. So does my left arm -an auntie bumped her elbow into me that day- nd there's a blue black now. Nd I'm feeling so fucking cold. Th fan, at speed1, is blowing at me with my curtains wide open. Feels like I'm freezing. Damn.
Now I'm ranting like a spoilt brat.
Ha.

as long as you need me

we'd be here for each other, wouldn't we?

(:

Life's been good admist all th bads.
All thanks t those who care,
those who listened t me when I needed a pair of hearing ear.

many loves(:

*trudging forward*

Need a lil break from project.

Nd I'm gonna get back t ONE (SINGAPORE) PPT now.
I MUST FINISH EDITING IT TNIGHT.

I MUST FINISH TH WHOLE PPT'S NOTE TNIGHT.

I MUST FINISH GRAND CANYON TNIGHT.

I MUST FINISH TRAVEL WONDERS'S REPORT TNIGHT.

Damn, I'm feeling th heat now.

Determined t make th ONE (SINGAPORE) PPT a good one.
Probably cos it's one of th last ppt I'd ever do with these bunch of wonderful people.

=(

Let's make it work, META6!

开始 stress 了。

Oh man.

Alrighty, back t ONE (S) PPT!

Am looking for this urgently. Preferably INSTOCK.
Do email me at cecilialimjiayan@gmail.com
if you have it. $15 nd below(:


Initial plan t watch BrideWar with Starfish, Syaz nd Meera was cancelled cos of some last minute assignment from mummydearest.
Thn went for late night movie with Starfish, Bro nd his gfriend istead. Th tickets for Underworld was SOLD OUT. So in th end we watched BrideWar. xD
It was kinda nice. Set me thinking about alot of stuff.
Anna Hathaway was so pretty.


Was supposed t go t City Hall with Starfish tday t find my shifu nd 拜年. In th end we missed it cos had t rush down t my uncle's house.
Sorry sweetie, that you brought th present but I didn't go down in th end! =B
Promise I'd go down on Tuesday. I'll text you again uh(:


There's a paternal gathering tomorrow. I'm so looking foooooorward t it. O.o

hey. i'm glad that we could chat like that.
it wasn't heavy hearted, despite th topic.

i'm glad that you told me about th dream,
about how you felt.
i'm glad that we could open up t each other so much

more compared t th past.
glad that we heard each other's view

on that topic.

nd baby, remember.

i'd be here, waiting.

take your time, i'd wait for you t step outta your

comfort zone.

cos ya know why.

(: