HIATUS.

till then.

Their own Leap Year?

Why bother to meet up every 18th April for an anniversary that doesnt exists anymore?
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Drained physically and mentally this WHOLE week. April intake's orientation is a a BIG blast! Super tiring! Wake up so early every day; to serve a bunch of ingrates! They are so rude and unfriendly. =(

This semester's timetable is SUPER SLACK(:
But all are project based modules, kinda tricky~

Totally forgot what to blog about. Suddenly my mind went blank.
Maybe it's still th side effects from th fever ytd! =( After every orientation, I'd fall sick T_T

Sorry for th abrupt ending; I can't 思考 properly now =/

无比的烦恼

I have a problematic bruddar.
I hope he can grow up nd be more sensible.


有时我以为我已经做的最好，已经是没得挑的了。
可是最后还是因为我是女生而被比下去。

不管我做的多好， 感觉上你最疼爱的还是他。不是我。
不管我对你怎么好， 你眼里似乎都只会在看到他过后才看到我。
不管我多么比他还替你着想，你还是宁可因为他而受伤。

It seems like no matter how I wanna protect you from his rubbish, you'd rather dive in and be affected tremendously by it.
Why?

为什么？
难道我真的不比他好吗。。

LOVELY EVENING(:

Lovely bunch of 2G03 girls(:

It's such a dear thing (to me!) to meet up with friends you almost lost touch with!

Thanks Judee for organising this! =D

Let's have somemore of it soon kays. Really happy to catch up with all th gurls after such a long time!

*yanjie, let's go for bike lessons tgt larh! (:(:

YAWN! It's 1:3oAM and I woke up SO early. T_T

updates later yet again!

Good night world!

EARTHLINGS(:(:

MUMU ended her job like finally already. But it's also th last weekday of holidays alry! Like what's th point right? =/

My house is getting MORE AND MORE dusty because of th THREE renovations going on.

Anyway, we're supposed to go back to school today; for April intake's meeting. BUT IT STARTED RAINING CATS AND DOGS AT 7AM! It hasn't rained in th morning for th past four mornings. Tell me why did it start raining today then?!?! Destiny/ fate/ meant to be? Walao. I'm so angry nd pissed can; making my shoe wet wet wet! *nd I hate that
I think Alicia's kinda -.-" cos we promised we'll be there. But th rain's too fucking big nd plus there's no bus- no matter to JP interchange (to change to train) or 502 (which is so not worth it cos I'm just gg back to school for a while~)
So in th end we didn't turn up.

Anyway, 2G03 gathering later at CityHall(:
Mixed feelings; updates later!

ps/ realise i've been saying alot of updates later lately. alrights, updates later. (:

TAGS REPLY:

MUMU: Kunda is good looking, but AHDI is th best can! xp
Sulinnn: SHENNY'll be friends until season 5. They'll become lovers in season 6!! *hopefully why don't you like SHENNY as lovers? =(
Xuan: Heh Heh. I stop wearing it le. In fact, I threw away th blue lens that I bought for barely 1 week! =( Waste of my money can! But, I bought FreshKon purple lens le!! Not wearing it so soon though(:
Syazzy: Haha! Nostalgic eh? LOL! Anw, I THREW AWAY my lenses alrdy! T_T
Jenn: Yeah, it does feels good to let everything out(: Let's meet up again kays! (:
Tiffany: Waiyu~~ Yubbyubb, relinked(: Cya when school reopens which is like 4 days away?!
Judee: Lol. Yeah. Totally agree that we should do whatever we want straight away and not procrastinate. Btw, can't wait for th meet up this friday! =D
Secondx-hand: No thanks. I can't wait for 3-5 weeks to get a bag. (: Thanks anyway!

Updates ltr! On how mumu abandon me for th last week of holidays and went out to have fun on her own!!

Omg.

Omg. I'm immersed in a VERY VERY noisy surrounding right now and I can't stand it!
I'm actually at home larh. But th incredibily annoying and energetic pair of siblings living a floor directly down my place is making a great din! Plus those renovating that's been going on for so many donkey years! Th worst thing is, there are at least 3 flats undergoing renovation AT TH SAME TIME!!
Noise pollution larh!!!

UPDATE LTR.
CAN'T WAIT FOR DINNER AT XING RESTAURANT!
WOOHOO!

ps/ I'm thinking of changing my blog to wordpress.com

It's a long long post.

How often do you change your mind because of something you saw, you read, you heard or you came across?
I, am a victim of weak mind.

Just read Jenn dear's entry and I start to ponder. Think real hard.

And it seems like, I'm wasting my life away.
I've always thought that I'm still young and that I still have many years ahead to figure out what I really wanna do with my life. So whenever people ask me, "What do you intend to do when you grow up?" my answer would always be something that I am interested at that point. My answer never seems to be constant. Because I never knew what I wanted to be when I grow up.
And before I realise, I'm already growing up. I'm already a 19year old gurl. But I still don't know what I wanna be, what I wanna do in th NEAR future.

At some point of life, I wished that I could just drop every single responsibility I have and escape from this hectic world.
Escape from my procrastination,
escape from my responsibility,
escape from my responsibility in each and every role I play,
escape from my everything.

And if one day I were to take a look at my life as a third party, I'd probably find myself laughing at my own stupidity for wasting away my youth doing stupid and meaningless things. And then I'd start to regret and reproach myself for being that stupid.

Maybe I should start washing those Eeyores who has been seating on those shelves for ever.
Maybe I should start attending my bike practical lessons.
Maybe I should start thinking about where I wanna go after graduation from here.
Maybe I should start saving money for my future studies and bike.
Maybe I should start learning how to give instead of receiving.
Maybe I should start trying to be magnanimous about every hurt that people inflict on me.
Maybe I should start reducing th hurt I bring to people, to an even lower level.
Maybe I should start thinking for myself more than I think for them.
Maybe I should start..
There are so many and too many Maybe I should start. But how many do I actually fufill?

Stagnant.
Changes.
Stagnant.
Changes.
Stagnant.
Changes.
These happens all th time in life. And we have to embrace it, no matter we like it or not.

There's gonna be a change in my life, soon.
Because I'm going to work on getting my bike license.
And I promise I'll get it (:


It does feel good!
To let everything out at a go. And not bottling up them all in th heart.













And to lao dua eh/mumu, I'm sorry for scaring you this afternoon with that terribly unexpected loud cry. I don't know what's gotten into me. I know it's stupid to cry like that over th washing of Eeyores. I was terrified by myself as well. I really don't know why did I start crying that loud and insanely. Forgive my craziness and insanity. (:

SHENNY LAAAAAA.

*credits to whichever genius whi created this lovely picture:]]]]]]]]]

Many are against Shenny, BUT I LOVE SHENNY!
IC, will you please let them become an item in season6? pretty please? (:(:

ANOTHER REASON TO LOOK FORWARD TO 2009LWORD SEASON 6 =)

My eyes are getting REDDER. Even th salesperson at th optic shop says my eyes are blood shot. Haha.

But I still want my purple lenses; tml!

My blue contact lens are giving GREAT trouble. Ever since I changed it, I start to have even more eye shit. Alot alot alot more. Nd to make it worse, they get blood shot easily. Like now. It feels dry nd pain nd it's red. T_T

Ended th two days work today. Someone complained about me. I think she's from SIM? She came up to me nd shook my elbow when I was busy nd asked me for safety pins. I told her I don't have nd don't know where to find them AND SHE COMPLAINED TO TH BIG BOSS DIRECTLY.
Tell me, don't you think she is a FUCKTARD?! Too bad/Luckily I wasnt there with Laoda nd all when th big boss told them that woman went to complain me. If not I'd tell th boss nd th woman off! Felt so wronged can! Walao.
But of course, there are good things about this job too; can see many pairs of pretty pretty heels and touch many macho bodies. =p
Most of th guys have superb build can! Whoo~

Volunteer work tml. *mental note: buy shower cap nd purple lens
I think I should try another brand instead of Encore?

Omg. I don't know what th hell am I saying now. My mind is filled with how to improve th situation of my face now. Hur!
My skin is getting from bad to worse; nd mummie suggests it's because of th Ginvera face wash (which I just bought)! I wanna go facial, FACIAL!!

华语(:

♥♥♥♥爱人爱人爱人♥♥♥♥


本人比较偏心，所以只会 post 爱人的独照。


今天过的好累，连续两个小时不间断的帮那批大学生穿毕业袍。
弄得手好累，因为他们都很高。就连女孩子也都很高！所以 我的手似乎一直都是在“空中”。 Haha！明天还有一天。而且是早上7点半就要到！！ Omg！大概6点就要起床，我的天啊~！

星期六还有 volunteer work 。Oh my 天，那也是早上的。虽然是比较迟一点(9点)但是那是在Yishun！！ T_T 好像也也好到哪里去~

PS/不要问我为什么今天用华语 blog 。就是想要而已。没有特别意思(：

Volunteer work's kinda baaaaaaad. Screwed up th first person that came up to me.

爱人还是很帅。期待演唱会！

Some working session tml. Can finally meet up with Mary darling(=
Pity that Sweets wont be able to come. *BUT IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT, 真的(=

Going to fall sick soon. Troubles from throat and nose; like always.

Totally not in th mood to blog.
Shan't say why here.
心情非常非常不好!

Reply tags though:
Jenn: alrdy outta town? meet up for lunch again when you come back(:
Qianhui: (= don't mind it too much! loves!
Malio: I'll be seeing you tml, catch up kays! MISSES!!
Hazel: Hello you! Another surprise tag! (: Thanks for you concern, cya ard!

心情不好

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPOILT BRAT SYAZANA!
I know you like th Tigger alot right? Cos it's from us(:
Add them to your collection!
And you're legal now!! We can watch M18 movies w/o peixuan now!! WAHAHA! xp

Alrights. Th most happening week of this holiday is COMING!

Because I'm going to do volunteer work at YISHUN tml! Helping eldely to fill up income tax (or is it CPF?) stuff at a community centre. YES, all th way to YISHUN. *zomg

Then Sunday, my 爱人 is coming to Singapore!! WOOHOO!! Nd sending him off on Monday, most probably.

April Fool, going down to Serangoon for th training like we don't know what to do alrdy! And Wednesday. Promise to go bbdc. *cross fingers I really wil try to go down larh. =(

Thursday nd Friday will be working at SIM with all my lovely friends(=

Nd Saturday, back to YISHUN for volunteer work.

Nd taddah! Last week of holiday. Actually, I'm kinda looking forward to go back to school. Mummy wants me to find a permanent part time job. But I don't want to. Then she say's I'm so slack nd blah blah blah. I don't like it when she chides me saying that I don't think for my future. =/ Just lemme be myself. Lemme do what I want to.

因为我不想以后老了，再来后悔以前没做自己想做的事。

ps/ my bruddar is a inconsiderate idiot.

Aiya, very emotional nd feeling very unhappy lately 就对了.

Oh, sorry Weilong, unable to meet you ltr =( Not on purpose de larh, totally fergot I still need to do th volunteer work thing tonight ma. dui bu qi! Meet you th next time you book out kays, owe you one(:

Been watching 原来我不帅 for th past two days. 张勋杰, totally like him can! From Outsider to Outsider II to 原来我不帅, omg. So lovable! *winks

Nd sweetie, what's going to happen? Your FYP nd th work clashes. =(
Tell me again what's going to happen kays. If you can't work, lemme know earlier. Think of some solutions(=
Nd Jenn dear, enjoy your trip to hk nd take GOOD CARE of yourself there(=

Going off, to peel tau gay (gay gay gay) for mummie le. Then try figuring out th auto-inclusion shit ltr. Omg, die die die. How to help them when I don't even know how to operate th system?! *faints

I KNOW I AM SELFISH

I know I have no right to say all these, but I don't care.
I know I'm selfish. But which human aren't?!
Don't say you care for me nd you love me.
Even you yourself is selfish at times, just that you did not realise it.
you can't and you won't have th best of both worlds.
If you really cared for me, you wouldnt do this and still ask me not to be angry. And this is so fcuking not th first time. If I hadn't care about you, why would I even be angry then.
Sometimes, it's just hard for me to say some things out. I once told you you'll always be part of me, no matter what and you gave a smirk nd said mm. Maybe I've hurt you deep inside, but you silence inflicted just as much hurt in my heart. I've told you, that you sound unconvincing. You laughed a little, and that's it.
You once made a remark saying how selfish I was to hold on to you, and yet not wanting to be tgt.
I KNOW I AM SELFISH.
But guess what, I am so going to give all up. Everything, all privileges. Everything that used to be mine solely. Nothing's exclusive now.
Not even me.




I am a very HOME person. Take ytd for example. Just one call from mummie of usual nagging for bike lesson, it affected my mood for th whole day. To th extent that I did not even have th mood to do m favourite thing. And like the other day at IMM, that unintentional sentence made me teared. VERY MUCH. It was really awful to hear that sentence; even if it's only joking abt it for more than once let alone being serious about it. But I know you're not, of course.
Anything that happened at home would affect me th most. Even a little little disagreements between my folks can make me feel awful nd wanna cry.
I've always lived in a happy family. Nd I am still. I am truely gratfeul for this, God.




If there's anything that could make me unhappy for one whole day, it'd be my family and YOU.
Forget it, I reckon you won't believe this sentence either. Just like how you smirked at my heartfelt words th other time.
Thank you very much(:

Omfg.

Season finale totally crashed me.

BUMMED TOTALLY, like what sulinn says.

T_T

ps/will update ltr.

bohemian like you!

What's th worst feeling you've ever felt? Cos I just felt that way this evening. Don't wanna talk about it anyway. =(

It totally disrupted my mood to blog.

So long!

BEFORE AFTER

Please. Tell me there is a different (except for th lighting, of course) cos I've asked 3 people nd all of them said there isn't much/no difference at all!

I spent th whole afternoon doing this nd this is th reply I got.

T_T

BLABBER!

Went to Bugis nd PlazaSing with MUMU for a little shopping. Nd she bought this really nice RED top!
Succumbed to th temptation of th guy in CottonUp nd bought a purple tori pouch (for 5bucks) which is totally not of any use to me. Yet another example of weak mind! All he did was Getting that as well? when MUMU was paying for th top nd me attracted to th purple small lil pouch.
Then I got it.
yadah yadah, weak mind I have!

Next is to Bugis, shopped a little nd went to QQNoodle. She's been saying she wanna eat there for like a century? =x
Th food's kinda nice, I liked th sambal fried rice(= Nd the noodles are really QQ can! =p
To top it off, th noodle's looooooooooooooong!


But their dumpling's a *use high pitch voice here* little too giam siup on th filling!
Look at th big dumpling SKIN. Try finding th filling of it. =/
(In case you can't, it's on th top left hand corner of th dumpling!) See, it's soooooo small you had to squeeze your eye to find it! *roll eyes


Considering th fact we had really little for lunch nd MUMU wanted to try 2 of their dishes, we ordered three dish to share; sambal fried rice, QQ noodle nd fried reman with gravy nd it costs us only ard 17bucks(=
Minus away 40¢ for each cuppa cold water. Lol.
*Omg. Feel like I'm promoting this eatery. Shall stop here.

Before I forget, I'm gg to change my URL again. But not yet(=

Anyway, when we were at Bugis Street, we were stopped by their management. They wanted to take photos of us wearing th stuff we bought there for this competition. Nd th winner can win 500bucks! We almost said yes but ultimately no. It's kinda funny to change straight away just to take pictures of it. Furthermore I'm missing a belt; will look like some retard w/o a belt for tt top. So we declined.
But anw, if you're interested. Go here for more details.

Right, now I'm sounding like I'm some blogger doing promoting on blogs. Shall stop here totally.

ps/ The Weakness in Me is my latest addiction though it's an old song!
pps/TLW So511 is GREAT! Aww, it's ending in a weeks' time =(
ppps/I cant find those titles in Kinokuniya (Maybe I should really try PageOne!)
pppps/I WANT A JOB

BYE lovelies!

Carresing th plates!

If anyone of you have a job to introduce, tag me here kays(=
Don't wanna stay home nd do nthg this whole holiday.
*but I'll be frank; I'm picky.
I dowan anything like sales promotor or anything tt requires training=/

Sometimes, people just tend to oversee some things which are so near to you, which you see everyday.
Nd today, I had a great example to show. Take a look at th picture below;

This is th picture of my light in my room's ceiling. It seems nth special, but take a closer look.
Can you make out what's th alphabet carved on th brown circumference?
Well, I've always thought it's an alphabet A.

But guess what, IT IS NOT AN ALPHABET A.
It is a combination of two alphabets;


MY ROOM'S LIGHT/LAMP IS BRANDED!!
Lol. In case you still haven't make it out, it says LV.
HOW COOL IS THIS!
Nd I only realise it after using for like, 8years?! =/
I always look at th light/lamp nd think; why do they wanna carve an A on it? Does it symbolizes anything?
I found out this evening nd called my mummie into my room, wanting to share th joy of my BIG DISCOVERY.
Then my folks walked in nd I pointed at th ceiling nd said, Mummie, do you know tt th letter carved there is LV?!
Nd my mummie started laughing at my stupidity nd said I was so slow. Apparently th whole world family knows except me! She said even my bruddar knew it ages ago!
T_T

Great.
I'm a sloooooooooooooooooow ass.

ps/I can't wait for th second half of March to come quickly! It's gonna be happening(=

TAGS REPLY:
xuanxuan; I'd pretty much like to have purple bedsheets! WOOHOO! Wait till mummie repaint my room, then I'll get purple bedsheets! THEN I'LL HAVE A PURPLE ROOM~! =D
qianhui; WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING?! O.o
qinyi/xysthus/mumu; WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?! *raise eyebrow
GG; Lol. Aiya, joking only la. Anw, Another side of my room has two shelves FULL OF EEYORE(= Lol! Maybe I should show it here someday. *winks
syazzy; thankyou thankyou! nd I wanna see your room too! nd your hair too! xD we should ge Sentosa larh! =(
tiffany; waiyu~! miss you also!! put a tagboard at your blog ma. then we can da qing ma qiao there to let xuanxuan see! xD I see her chasing me with a chopper! xD

LASTLY.

If you happen to see those titles on th left <-- hand side, tell me. They're said to be good books. I wanna borrow/buy them(=