it's out of love,

because you said so,

because iloveyou,

because i want you t be happy.

so let's be it.

(:

i have th right t know

Boy

all I ask of you is t be honest with me no matter what.

You know I can withstand your brutal honesty.

So tell me, what's wrong?

so sick.

Click here.
Damn love this song nd it's MV.
小天好帅！

I can't seem t embed videos t my blog for nuts!
taoyannn!

Decided t move my table t face my window tday. =x
Looking at th threatening sky, rain seems t fall anytime soon.

I woke up with a heavy heart tday.
Everything's fine. But why do I feel so 不踏实.
No more nightmares, no more waking up with teary eyes.
I hop everything's gonna be really fine.

don't wanna fall asleep

会选择轰轰烈烈，放肆的和你爱一天。
用尽那二十四小时让你知道我是多么的爱你。
可能只有这种放肆的机会，才会让我毫无顾虑的说出我的感觉。反正到了最后就算你的答案不是我要的也没关系。因为我已经忘记了。。

只要你不愿意说，我就不会逼问。

但是我要你知道只要你回头，就会看到我。

Nightmare!

从恶梦中醒来知道它有可能变成真的，是一种恐慌害怕的感觉。

No matter how hard I try t block away th thought, no matter how hard I try t not think about it, no matter how hard I try t be optimistic, no matter how hard I try not t cry, no matter how hard I try t tell myself I'd get through it,

i still can't do it.

自己的生活一团乱，却还要去关心身旁的人。
自己都照料不好，怎么的关心别人。

该怎么办，一团乱！

Just got home, off t bath!


我这次没有任性的走开。

This is how much I love purple xD
Thanks t Syaz nd hOney`xuan for th late bday present! =D
UBER LOVE IT, th purple wallet (in th photo) from Dorothy Perkins!
thanks=D



So, I skipped class yesterday nd so did starfish.
Went for work still, nd ended up in ahboo's house.

FOR HOTEL 626!

hOney, your good recommendation uh! xD
Laoda nd starfish started playing it nd got so excited that they started searching youtube for more horror videos T_T
*scared th wits out of Jiayan nd Wenlingg*
Managed t catch a few glimpse of th game though, not so scary when you play it in groups. Lol!
Nd we watched some parts of Suicide Club.
Man, it was gross!
50 Japan high school gurls stood in a row in th train platform, held hands nd jumped down together when th train arrived.
Ohmyfuck!
It was gross, when you see th bloooood splashing on th train windows, onth t commuters, all over th floor. Eeeeew!

Okokay. Gonna stop. Don't want t be reminded of those gory scenes again.
Gah, gonna watch ANTM now! Nd badminton later with foursome=D

Lunch, where is my lunch?
xD


对不起，我不会再任性的走开了。

今晚的雨好大..

有些人值得等候，
有些悲伤值得忍受。
[(P.S. 我爱你)]

Suddenly


[{还有权力这么说吗?}]

I thought I'd be able t think even more clearly in th rain.
So I walked home in th rain.
But it clearly didn't help much.
There were so many thoughts running through my mind.
I couldn't help it.
I don't know what t do.

exuberant mode ON!

Was intending t change my blogskin. But when I clicked into blogskins.com, I pressed Ctrl + W almost immediately. Th skins looked sucky tday. Lol.

ps/ note th title of this entry, you can tell how HIGH I am. Even though I don't know what's making me so god damnit happy -which is dangerous- but who cares!
pps/ this is a kinda lengthy post. with pictures though=D

Anw, most of you are curious who fathers th kawaii lil baby gurl in my previous post right?
Laoda was shocked by th answer when I told her this morning. xD
Make a wild guess? But hOney`xuan, definitely not mine! Lol.
Nd nope, not me nor my lil cousin -who btw, resembles me- Chinyee nd Mary.

So I've decided t show a picture of Tricia (Laoda's guess was her or me!) photo. Say say say, she's uber cute! But she weighs a ton now! I haven't seen her for months nd when I tried t carried her last weekend (at th steamboat gathering) I almost couldn't lift her up!

Okay. Nd a random photo of me with her.

Anyway, th answer is NOT her.

So who is she?
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TADAHH!

There you go, th answer! She's my 爱人's 女儿. Cute, isn't she? She's a year old now. I think she's so so so adorable pleeeeease!

Laoda said th baby gurl in th photo kinda looked like me cos of th nose nd eyebrows. Man, come t look at it closely I think it does somewhat resembles! LOL! Button nose with raised eyebrows. Lols!

Okok. Gonna sidetrack abit.
Randomly I was listening t 933 this morning (I stopped listening when holiday started) nd heard Cruz saying Energy 要发新专辑了!!
God! I should really start saving money t chase, t buy albums, nd other not related stuff!
Didn't get a chance t hear their latest new single though! But no fuss, will eventually get to=D

Oh! Here's another baby gurl photo:

Okay la. This time no more guessing. Tell ya straight, THIS IS ME!! Cute right? I mean, seriously. Which baby doesn't look cute? Although yeah, kinda looked a bit tomboyish but cute right? Look at my still BIG nd INNOCENT eyes! Wahaha!

COMMENT COMMENT PLEASE!
Cos starfish said I'm not cute T_T
So does Laoda. =(



Okay. Next thing, actually related. Lol.
Randomly when I was finding a photo of 爱人 nd his daughter, I chanced upon this!

[[click t enlarge]]
if you can't really tell who is this.
*I can somewhat hear ahboo screaming*
LOL! Yes yes yes! It's her 小刚刚! God, damn 帅please! Uber like 白马王子!
But somehow I think of Oppa Kim (Jung Hoon) when I see this photo. Then I think of Princess Hours. Lol!

Ok. Enough now, of th random stuff.
So I mentioned last Saturday th foursome (laoda + ahboo + me + starfish) went t ECP for cycling nd roller blading.
Man, I think I'm getting better! I didn't fall AT ALL th entire day! DID NOT HORH! It was damn tiring, but fun! But I don't think ahboo would wanna go again? Cos she doesn't like outdoor sports. Starfish ah, let's do it again next month=D

So they've been cycling.

Th brainless Starfish, blading kaki=D

I was trying t take a artsy-fartsy picture of our blades luh. Damnit, it turned out nothing of that sort. Pfffft!
I think I mentioned before, but no harm saying it again xD
We had dinner at ECLagoon. Waited for quite a little while for seats. But dang. Th food was not that fabulous. Probably cos of th store we ordered from? I don't know. Must go back again t try other store's hanghe! Nd kangkong as well. =D
mental note t self: must go back t ECP again next month!

As most mates in school knows, Starfish is currently working at Toy R Us in PARAGON outlet (please visit him!) for th 2nd day tday!

I kinda promised him not t post these pictures, but *sticks tongue out*

I think RED suits him lor! Trying t act like he's working very hard. But he is luh. xD


something that might means nothing t you, mean th world t me(:
[(有些故事是只该说给懂的人听)]

*skip topic*

Anyway. Bet most of your have seen this right?


I think from that day onwards, he has a liking for my jumper, cardigan bla bla bla. Nd a slight inclination t put them all on him!

Don't believe me?
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Check this out!
Starfish with my cardigan nd geeky specs!
*Squeals UBER GAY*

So much better without th cardigan! He claim that he looked cute with th specs!

Poooft!
Finally all th pictures are up!
Let's talk about my tday now. *Like anyone wants t know*
So I decided t pon CDP but went in th end. I seriously need t sleep. But I draaaggeeeed myself outta bed at 730am! Then almost froze t death in th cold cold cold computer room for 3hours. Lunch nd had lessons with KK. Damn, I think he's worse than GraceCheong please.
Imagine,

No1.
KK: *looking at th comp screen* Your measurements are wrong ah. *walks away before she has a chance t ask for guide*
Laoda: Orh.
-comes back t check-
KK: Your tabs are wrong. *walks away*
Totally wth right? Like you say it's wrong but you don't bother t correct her?

No2.
KK: Class, everyone clear?
Jiayan: No~~ Don't understand~
KK: *don't know really never hear or pretend* Ok ah, everyone?
Jiayan: No~~ Repeat~
KK: Ok.. Let's go on t assignment blablabla.
Jiayan: *turns t Laoda* =.=
Wth.

But with clever Laoda nd Starfish, I managed t grasp all th tabs la, indent la, decimal tab blablabla. In fact I figured out Decimal tab myself! *so proud of Jiayan*

Ok. Continue what I did for th rest of th day. *LOL*
Ended lesson nd came home with Starfish. Seat around for an hour plus nd off t JP. FINALLY GET T DRINK GREEN APPLE GREE TEA W/O PEARL ADD COLOURFUL JELLY pleeeeease! Yes, th name is this long! So everytime when I buy, th auntie can't be bothered t 领听 (listen with her heart) nd end up giving me th wrong order. T_T
Nd had a waffle for dinner. With chocolate jam! Didn't like it until he bought it th previous time. Th chocolate was like free or what? I've only seen cheese oozing out from pizza crusts (now I feel like eating pizza! T_T) but th chocolate actually OOZ OUT from th waffle! Damn 幸福的feel please! *easily contented*
Okay. Then I sent him t th MRT for work (HAHA!) nd walked home drinking my (correctly ordered) bubble tea =D

Ooohh~ If life is like this everyday 我就很幸福!

Nd then I'm online nd blogged all th way until now!
Th post date nd time for this entry is 7:46pm. Th time now is 9:12pm.
I took a good looooong 1 1/2 hours t blog this entry! But not th longest time taken t blog though!

Okay. Now I fee like I've been blogging my entire life away. LOL!
Cos it's a kinda really very long entry? HAHA!
I think it's got something t do with my euphoric mood currently.*wonder why am I so happy*

Anyway I didn't plan for such a long post la.
Laoda: Blog a long long post la.
Jiayan: *laughs* For what?
Laoda: For us t read lor. Then can read for a longer time ma.
Jiayan: *still laughing* Okok. I'll think of what t blog.

Nd tadahh! this post is born! =D
Ok, I think I'm starting t sound like some insane woman. *sunnychow asked if imma crazy woman tday when we did a personality test*
&%@!^$
Okok. (noticed how many Ok I said in this entry!) Gotta run now, before I infect you guys with me random euphoric-ness (which lasted for th whole of tday since PR!).
Sumo house tml with Starfish nd hOney nd probably Dicky(:
Aww, I'm hungry now.
Katsu-don please!

Oh! Lastly, I got this unknown swollen bum on my right cheek yesterday th moment I woke up. It was damn pain nd itchy nd now my skin feels damn rough. Hur! It's no longer swollen but it has a numb feeling nd it's itchy=(
I hope it'll get better tomorrow.

My bruddar is conferencing with his friends now. I think he's planning a BBQ + chalet? God, I've been saying I want a chalet for some time. Gotta save up nd organise one soon for lovelies! Gather gather gather!
Sudden urge t BBQ nd stay out with friends!

Now really gotta run!
Oyasumi
nd XOXO's

Cute not?
Tell you who is this baby girl in a while O.o

When i feel cold and warm at the same time,
when i read over the same text message for the umpteenth time,
when my heart and thoughts somehow appear to rhyme
and when a simple name conquers my whole mind,
i know i love you still.

Remember I said sometime back my uncle called for a family gathering at MountFaber?
We actually went t this lousy service, unfresh food, warm nd heaty steamboat restaurant. Come t think of it, it doesn't even look like a restaurant. Nd there were damn little patrons please!


Check out my cute cousins on mummie's car. They were jumping up nd down happily =D


ahma(: nd my cousin(:

When was th last time you received a hand made bday card? Although it came a lil later, but it's so nice t receive a HAND MADE BDAY CARD can!

So anyway yesterday. School was fine. Work was fine. Interview with them at town was fine. Everything was fine. Except for a few hiccups here nd there. *pouts*

Check this out!
When starfish turned his eyes t look at th side, I saw this at th corner of his eyes! Doesn't it look like some blood clot in th eye?! Aww, it sure looks pain! Like, blue black in th eye? Literally in th eye. Eewww! =x


Yesterday after work, while on th way t Paragon. We were itching for something t bite, so we bought this loaf of bread at th bus stop! ND ATE IT ON TH BUS. Lol! He said we looked ridiculous. Kinda true though, with those people looking at us.

Swear I always do such dumb things whenever I'm with you can.

Never fail t think of lame but funny stuff t do together. Making me throw face with you!
Aye, but it was memorable la.
Who else'd eat A LOAF of bread on th bus like us did!

He stuffed th whole quarter of bread into his mouth!


He made me angry nd ahboo made him do this.


You should have seen his SHAG until cannot de face after he took this photo. LOL! XD

ps/ ECP tml(:

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？

不在乎有没有以后

Life's been bad. Kinda rotten too.

But I'll get through it.

We're still close friends.
Just like before.
Nd I'm glad for that(:

countdown.

- Boy I really love lying on your laps(: -
When he gets so into his online games at my house.
=.=
Self entertainment.


You can sensor away his face if you want t. Lol. But I like my expression uh!

So anyway, we went back t school tday at 9am t help out mrSunnychow for th filming of a short clip for our school's portal. Called westube. LOL! Our own version of youtube, they call it.
Was kinda fun uh, th whole recording session, together with AuntyJo nd LPK (we don't know her!).
Went on all th way until somewhere around 11? Then they decided that's all for tday cos they have t attend some lessons for lecturers.
Lunch at Sumo-House nd that glutton ate 2 set meal on his own!
Oh! Did I mention earlier? We were supposed t act as sales personnel (me) nd customer (him). So I had t somewhat dress formally with high heels. Nd my pretty heels decided t gimme troubles again nd cause 3 blisters within a short 2hours! T_T
To make it worse, one burst! even before I reached home. So in th end we took a cab home. *waste of money*
Yes, now I'm saying TAKING CAB IS A WASTE OF MONEY! It indeed is, under such a lame (literally) situation. Cos it was uber hard for me t walk, so much so I had t step on his leg t walk over t th shoulder of th road t hail a cab!

Uh! If you've been t my place, you should know how many Eeyores (yoreyore, I call them) I have on my bed.

Nd a disaster happened tday!

A PINEAPPLE DECIDED T ATTACK ONE OF THEM!



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CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?

TH STUPID PINEAPPLE HEAD + STARFISH

ACTUALLY WHACKED ITS TAIL OFF ITS BUTT!

Then I got depressed for a lil bit nd he offered t buy me a new one.
Boy I was joking just now when I said it's okay. Cos come t think of it, it's not okay! Even though I can sew it back.
BUT I DEMAND A COMPENSATION FROM YOU!
xD

Ok. Ubrupt ending.
Skating tml with starfish before heading t Mary darling house for fondue + staircase noodle=D

Lots of X's nd O's

({no matter what})

你有着淡淡的忧愁，小小的自闭，做事情总缺少了那一分力气，无精打采。你有些梦幻，想 法总是不切实际。你不想跟人联络，什么事都不想做，但独自一人却感到寂寞，无法享受单独，无法得到平静。

Omfg.
The ending for School Days is so fcuking incredible.
Lost for words.

change

The House Bunny
Connected
Eagle Eye
Mamma Mia! The Movie

When can I watch HouseBunny?!

Eagle Eye nd Connected are really nice films. It's a MUST WATCH! Ok, now it makes me wanna watch th original version of Connected!

Currently watching 美味关系, School Days (anime!) nd ANTM Cycle11 nd reading 亲爱老公 still.

mrSunnychow called nd asked both me nd khooonglai back t school this friday. Was asked t help do a short clip or something like that for th school x=
Nd we were discussing funny how they chose us. Like, out of so many students, Why us? O.o
Something's funny x=
Gotta find out on friday.

My hands are itchy! For mahjong!
Somehow I can't wait for Sat t come. Somehow. =D
Mahjong + Ctb + Ctbranch + Staircase noodle + Chocolate fondue!
WOOTS!
ALL MY LOVES!

我只在乎你

如果没有遇见你 我将会是在哪里

日子过得怎么样 人生是否要珍惜

也许认识某一人 过着平凡的日子

不知道会不会 也有爱情甜如蜜


任时光匆匆流去

我只在乎你

心甘情愿感染你的气息


人生几何能够得到知己

失去生命的力量也不可惜

所以我求求你 别让我离开你

除了你 我不能感到 一丝丝情意


如果有那么一天 你说即将要离去

我会迷失我自己 走入无边人海里

不要什么诺言 只要天天在一起

我不能只依靠 片片回忆活下去

Tell me something I did that made you happy.
Tell me something I did that made you angry.
Tell me something I did that touched you.


No matter who you are, tag me about it(:

pictures overload!

Aye.
A random one; khooonglai nd I went t th arcade some time back nd he challenged me t bball.
Didn't trash him, BUT I SCORED HIGHER THAN HIM okay!
Lol. I think he's gonna smack me when he sees this xD

Anw. I've gotten th photos for my bday from Mary darling=D
Remember I told you guys about th prettay nd saccharine cake?
Take a look!


make a wish(:

Then I start smashing slicing th cake.

GROUP PHOTOS

Nd after dinner while they are chatting away outside Marche, Eileen did her heinous crime!

She slowly brought me t th water..

Nd th next thing I know, I'M WET!

Can't tell how wet I am?

Still can't?

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This wet. xD

So that marks th end of my 19th bday celebration(:
Much loves, Ctb! nd th lovelyboy nd Eileen(:

You know, Ctb always say we're like MghtyPrincess.

But you know something?
Actually he's always th one bullying me!
Behind that smiley photo, there's this

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He's forcing me T_T

Okays. Random pictures, KBox with Ctb not long ago(:

Nd Sat, went t mushrOom's house room warming=D
She kinda revamped her room for her manicure business. So she invited us over t chill alil(:

Nd we had Canadian Pizza for dinner.
Boohoos~ It was cold nd hard t bite on. A very challenging dinner indeed!
Somehow th standard was lousy that night. =/

({i love eating twisties cake with you on th mrt})

This silly boy said I think my hair's very nice tday. Why don't you take a picture of it? then he gleed at me.

So there.

I think he looks like a lil boy here!
Anw, I helped him with his hair lor. That's why it's nice.

Although he tried t deny me of my effort! x=

He actually bought th 1litre Vitasoy nd drank it like it's those 5ooml. I'm just astonished. =/

early in th morning.
boy if i could, i'd love t be waking up every morning t find you beside me(:

Okay! All photos up finally=D

So yesterday th silly boy slept over at my place nd we went back t mushrOom's house again for mahjong=D
Okay la. Lost like siao. $50. But! We played chips. Lol.

Shall we play again, this coming weekend? XD

Oh! Guess what, I just realised smthg can.
This's like th LAST week of holiday. I didn't realised it until yesterday night. T_T

I was still telling Chinyee we have 2 more weeks.

MSN-ing with Laoda nd she said you're slow, as always. Walao. I was trying t be nice nd tell her, then she *&^%$# me. =(

Pssst! I have something t share,

I AM FEELING SO SICK NOW.

Lol. Okay. Lame. But uh, I'm so sick now T_T

Flu with headache. Took panadol but it's not performing.

It took me around an hour? To draft this entry. Slooooooooooow~

Okok. Cannot take it alrdy. My right hand is in pain (i don't know why!) nd I'm going off t watch ANTM Cycle11=D

xoxo's